giving a chance.

action.

do you ever feel like you've made a mistake? like you've done something completely wrong and you don't know if you can fix it?
yea, that's how i'm feeling right now.
and this thing that's bothering me, isn't even a big deal. i mean, it's a huge possibility that he still likes me, that he still wants me to like him back after i very rudely told him i didn't consider us anything more than friends.
but, you know what? i hate this feeling. the feeling of not having something you wish you did. like.. a boyfriend.
i don't even know what happened today. it was like one second i'm walking to the bus, and the next i'm trading rubber-band-animal-bracelets with him, and suddenly recieving a much needed hug. i was hooked.
it's not that i necessarily want to date him, it's just that i'm jealous of any girl hugging him like i did today.
it's wierd. i don't understand. i think it's something about being a teenager that i've read about in books or seen on tv. it's like all of a sudden, i want someone who will always care about me and wants me to be around them all the time. i want to be someones girlfriend.
now, don't get me wrong, this has happened to me before, but today, i had an experience that made me realize that everyone deserves a chance and that you shouldn't push people away who truly care about you because someday, maybe soon, you'll want them back.
i sound naive, and cheesy, and possibly annoying, buuuut don't all fifteen year olds? (:
--jade.

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